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This is a phase in my life which I would like to keep silent. I will be back blogging when I finally get back on my feet again. Till then....

Expectations

My god. I did not realise how long I have been absent since just now. I think I better keep up with the blogging pace or not I will lose touch.

Well, there is always a reason or reasons behind everything right? My reason is pretty simple. Went for holiday, busy shopping, catching up with old buddies, bf having to come over for the weekend and blah blah blah. But none of it was an excuse ok.

This post is actually for me to share my feelings about how my life this holiday is going to change by a certain event. I seriously do not know what to expect tomorrow. I am going to work in an office job starting tomorrow you see. I never had experience working in the corporate world which I think would make it harder. So, wish me luck. I do hope everything turns out well.

My future lies in your hands.

The Uncertainty of Summer

I guess this post is quite overdue. I am still kinda waiting for my dear friend to send me some of those pics. But anyways, I should post something about my arrival in Malaysia.

Everytime I stepfoot into KLIA, I always have that feeling something is going to change this time. Every single time I come back, there is always something that changes. Friends getting lesser, the places that we used to hang out has become a total stranger, the familiar faces somehow does not seem as familiar as before. I guess time has changed, for the better I suppose. But somehow, there is always those familiar face that no matter how unfamiliar they may seem, it always seem the same internally. These are the kind of people which I would give anything in the world to hold on to.

So it would seem that this summer would be a total different one than the previous ones. Me not having a job and not knowing what I will be doing next semester and all. It is totally uncertain. Not like back in the days where I would enjoy till my heart contents and knowing that I would be going back to school sooner than I think when I go back to Melbourne the next semester. I guess this would be different. I wonder if its for the better or for worse. I really have no idea right now.

If you were wondering, I did managed to secure myself a job in Melbourne. Unfortunately, I turned it down for something more worth while doing. I do not know if I made the right choice but I guess every decision we make do lead to something we never expect. Like I said, creating my own fate. So that's that, we should see how it goes.

Have a great day peoeple, whether in the same time zone or not. We are under the same sky.

I Wonder

Sometimes you look out to the world and wonder, is it just me or is it the world that is being unfair. I sometimes wonder if it is actually both. However, I do believe in creating your own fate. My choice of extending my stay in Melbourne has created an unexpected turn which I have prayed hard for.

I really do hope that it will stay with me a little longer. I only want something "this" much once in a very blue moon.

Have a pleasant day people.

8th November 2007

People say it's Deepavali, but I say it's my 1st year anniversary with the boyfriend. However, we decided to keep it low. No celebrations, no presents and no surprises. Don't ask me why, it's kinda just because we did not wanted an extravaganza celebration. But I guess the boyfriend did not wanted the day to pass without at least some red atmosphere which represents you know what. So his sneaky mind decided to surprise me with this.

So that's that.

After every big successful battle, there is always the time where you bid farewell to your fellow team mates and friends goodbye. Going home to the loved ones where we once left to find a path where it will lead us in the future. Although it has been long waited to leave this place, but we know we will miss it nevertheless. I know I will.

This is how we said goodbye! With the company of laughter and joy and good Thai Green Curry and later on Gelato.

Left pic: Jian Hui & Janice Right pic: Kim & Courtney

Have a pleasant day fellow readers. For those who are leaving soon, have a safe flight and see you in one year.

Vintage & Contemporary

Being in the modern metropolitan world, it is sometimes hard to keep up with the couture that was once originated from the vintage and conventional world of fashion. I would say that Coco Chanel has her fair share of the invention. And also because of her, the modern world could never keep up even with the contemporary fashion.

At present, people like me and Kim would like to look back and mend those pieces that were once left out a very long time ago even before we were born. We decided to go for some contemporary shopping which was inspired by the conventional world of fashion, our newly amusement, Vintage.

And to Brunswick Street we went. A little Spanish Churros complemented the afternoon under the scorching sun.

Have a nice week ahead my fellow readers! Do visit hunters and gatherers if you can! Muackz!

Once upon a time...

there were 3 senoritas who was captured by the evil vibe of examination. They waited and waited for the time where they would be released from the evil evil vibe. Everyday, they prayed hard for that moment.

One day, while they were slaving their way through the work they were slaved to do, an angel of life came to their rescue and released them from the evil vibe and they were FREE!!!

The first thing that came to their mind was to head back to the place where they used to loved so much and do the thing that they love most. SHOPPING! And there they went, their hearts just melted when they saw the pretty dresses and beautiful cosmetics which they have not seen for a long time.

The rest of the story you can imagine yourself...

And they lived Happily Ever After Holidays!!!

2nd Year has Come and Passed

It's all gone now. The 2nd year of my degree. Which means I only left with 1 year of stuyding and then I'm on my own? Sounds great right?

Don't get me wrong. I do feel very happy. Exams are over, holidays are here for good, not technically but it does feels like it. But it means study life is going to be over soon. In fact, I am already feeling it. Remember again, I have to find job next year for my co-op year? Well, that still did not go so well if you are still wondering. Wish me luck for that! Oh, which brings me, I will not be going back to Malaysia on the 9th of November but on the 16th. I am so sorry Maine dear, I can't be there on the day of your birthday. I hope you understand, even with the slightest chance and the slightest hope, I really will like to fight for it.

Coming back to my point. When people tell me that uni was the best times of theirs lives. I tend to give them the sneer and say, " are you kidding? Who likes to go to Uni? It's so depressing!" But now, I finally understand what they are talking about. When you are a student, you are a student. The only responsibility you have is to study and nothing else. Your parents pays for your tuition, most of your expenses are taken care of because all they want you to do is to concentrate on your ultimate responsibility instead of going out to find work. Life has never been that great, hasn't it?

When you start working, it's all up to you. Earning those cash and rationing it properly so that you don't go broke at the end of the month and so that you can pay those enormous amount of rent. Not only that, you have to go to work from 8am - 5pm everyday without any off day unless of a public holidays. You get that as a student too, but you get public holidays AND off days as well! You can miss classes and do whatever you like and won't get expelled. Unlike working, you'll definitely get fired! Nuff said.

Well, bottom line is, do live life to the fullest when you have the chance as a student. Things do not come easy I know this, but it won't last as well. I suggest we all should make full use of it. I know I will.

So long everyone, till the next.

Have a pleasant day!

Once in a while...

I have those emotional feeling about my family. Those who knows me really well will sorta know what i'm talking about.

Whenever I see siblings hanging out together, having a great time, telling stories about their lives, pursuading the parents to get them something, shopping and eating together, I tend to feel really really sad because I know I will never be able to do that. Never had and never will, as in literally.

The worst thing is, I do have siblings. None of which I can communicate properly with. It is not because we have a terrible relationship or anything that comes under that category, but it is more of an act of God that created the obstacle.

A few years back, things got worst. Worst than ever. I guess those were the days where I feel even more insecure about my family but it never occured to me to give up hope.

I never complained about what I have now, I feel lucky in a way to be just ordinary and normal. Parents that never give up hope on them. I believe God takes something from you and gives something back in return. Depending on how you want to see it. I know for sure that this may not make sense for most people. Yes, sometimes you will feel that he never takes anything from anyone but instead he gives them more. I do feel that way too...

Trust me, you never know what lies beneath.

Have a pleasant day!

If I ever be a qualified Accountant...

do not look for me to do your tax.

Reason 1: I do not know it from the back of my hands. I'll probably make you pay more tax instead.

Reason 2: I'll probably add an extra 0 at the back of your tax liability because I can be really careless.

Reason 3: I CAN'T EVEN DO MY OWN TAX PROPERLY!

Tomorrow is Taxation Law! But I guess with the help of notes and tutorial questions, it will make my 3 hour 15 mins torture easier. That is the only thing I like about Law subjects. Flip those pages baby!

Ohhh btw, I have just fell in love with the new MAC for McQueen collection. I guess he managed to rob me again this time. Arggghhh...!!! Tax you then only you know!! I can be a little weird at this time of the day, somemore with the Tax stuff kicking in.

But, I never fail to wish you readers out there a pleasant day! For those who are sitting exams as well, Good Luck ya'll!

p/s: Sorry no links this time!

I know I know...

I should be studying instead of blogging right now. Its already Tuesday and I still have not finish at least half of the subject. I can't help but keep flipping through the new ViVi magazine that I just bought this afternoon. It's addictive I tell you! Japanese Magazine rocks! They have mostly pictures with all the lovely clothes and models and no words! Mostly because I can't read Japanese but erm... that's the whole point anyway...TO LOOK AT PICS!

Seriously, if you do have access to these lovely lovely so-called bible. JUST GET IT! Don't care about the price. It's worth it I tell ya. Besides, how costly can a magazine be anyway?

For further information click on:Well, just to give you an insight. If you can read Japanese then GREAT!

Another one of my favourite would be CanCam.

Tell me what you think when you manage to grab hold of these!

Wish me luck for my last paper!

Have a great day!

www.stress.com

Ok, I really do not know what that website is but I do know I seem to be saying that line really really regularly for the past few weeks. I wonder if I will get sue for breaching the copyright legislation? "Funny".

Seriously, I really want all this to end. I just had my first paper today and what can I say, it did not start out well. It is in fact way below my expectation. I don't care if others said the same thing, but it's me, me who is the one sitting My paper. My pen. My brain. My luck. What I am trying to say is, I really did put tremendous effort into this paper, but yet no luck.

Sometimes I wonder, have I deteriorated that much in intelligence or things just seem to get way tougher beyond your reach. Anyone like to answer my question?

So, next will be the battle with Auditing people, brace yourself for the next big quetch!

A little something for amusement.

Post a Secret

Do you have a really weird and dirty secret that you are dying to tell?

I came across this article in Cosmo and I thought it was quite intereting. This was what I read:

"I truly believe all my problems would be solved, If only I were not fat!"

"I like looking at high resolution celebrity photos."

"I passed her at the store the other day... I wonder if she knows... I almost had his child. I wanted to tell her."

Visit "Post Secret". You will want to read on.

Have a nice day everyone!

At times like this

...... you tend to turn to the person you trust most for comfort. As for me, I trust him with my life, and I'm serious.

There is always a time where you wake up one morning from a bad dream and the dream somehow "eerily" relates to real life. Oh man, I must be a very stressed woman at the mo to have this type of dream.

There is nothing better than waking up from a bad dream being able to turn to someone that you know cares for you more than anything else in the world. Fortunately, I have the privilege. I am a very happy person once again.

Introducing the Man. This shall be the first time that I actually put up some private pictures in my blog. There will be many more to come I suppose. Hehe.

When oh when?

I finally know how it feels like standing in front of Tyra Banks waiting and hoping for the moment when your name gets called to let you know that you have not been eliminated.

Well, my experience is somewhat a little different from above in a sense that I have not been called nor been eliminated!

For those who didn't know, this semester for me is torture because I have to concentrate not only on my studies but also job hunting. I need to find a job for next year to complement my degree in Accountancy. Damn stress lor!

One by one, I watch my friends and course mates get call backs and interviews and even appraisals before they even started working! Do you know how it feels? Do you know how demoralize I am right now? This is so not fair!

When will it finally be my turn to pick up that call? To jump for joy? To be able to comfort the parents that their daughter has the ability to find work? Hey! it can be stressful knowing that your kids can't find a job you know!!!

When oh when?

When oh when will it be my turn????

Eyes, Lies and Illusion

Ignore the previous posts. Those are put up for my amusement.

Everything you are about to see here may or may not reflect what my life is or what I am really made of.

I have decided to start blogging here after creating it quite some time ago. Trying to find the perfect time to reconstruct it. And here it is, it's created!

Welcome to Eyes, Lies and Illusions! Hope you enjoy it!

This is no picture that i have taken from the internet nor did I really take it from the top. Its a real tangible picture that I have taken using my camera in an exhibition in Sydney "The World from Above". So you see, don't be deceived!

Transformers Shoes - Balenciaga

I am so in love with Balenciaga shoes till it actually made me thought of selling my car so that I can purchase those beauties! Nah.... I am just kidding. But I did mention that I'm an impulse shopper. =P

So, as I was browsing through Balenciaga website. I found this CLICK HERE, click the next items to see more! Wooo.... cool, dont they look like Transformers Shoes!!??

I was thinking, if a kid were to come up to me and say "where did you get them? I'm gona ask my mummy to get me one" What should I answer them? It's actually a joke, if you get what I mean.

Till then, have a nice day!

Retro Black

I think Edie Sedgwick is one of the most beautiful icon in the 60's. What makes her special is her own sense of style and most importantly her eyes which is always uniquely drawn in thick Black. From eyelashes to eyelines even the outer part of the eye is always beautifully drawn.

But, how someone so beautiful as her can become so troubled. The family, the drugs, the party, the divorces, the money and most tragically, the best friend Andy Warhol.

What lies beneath the Black Mascara Beauty?

Edie with Andy Warhol