I've only got one thing to say, "FML!"
I was never the type of person that let themselves drown in self-pity. But sometimes I wonder why do I have to potray a tough image, not to anyone else but in actual fact I am proving this point to myself. To whom do I have to prove? NO ONE.
My stubborness has taken a toll on my life. I've shut myself away from advises, care, support and people that tried to do something to make a difference for me all these time.
I began to wonder is it time for me to Give Up on that mission impossible and get back on track to reality? And save myself from drowning in too deep, before I become what I have sworn never to be.